Sunday, June 5, 2011

Goodbyes

So I did pretty good saying my goodbyes and not crying until the moment I got to the curb at LAX and kissed my parents and sister goodbye. It was the moment I knew was coming, an exciting but scary one. It was the point of no return, whatever didn’t get done wasn’t getting done and I was leaving for three months. One thing that satan has been trying to do is make me afraid of being alone on this trip. I have a HUGE group of family and friends at home and I love being with people and rarely have a moment of loneliness. I don’t mind being alone but it lasts for a few minutes and then I call Jamie to talk or see what she’s doing. The panic set in about a week before I left (I think the after math of that is all over my face….7 cold sores and counting!! Uggg). I kept thinking about giant spiders and being alone for three months. And who would kill the giant spiders if I was alone?! I just got the chills all over! (Doesn’t help when my friends in Austrailia keep telling me about their spiders that shoot up from the ground and how their normal house spiders are the size of tarantulas! Google “huntsman spider”..that’s their house spider! I refuse to look until Im out of the country!) I kept my eye on the goal, knew this was a God thing and trusted Him to take care of everything. Like I said, I lost it at the airport and cried, as soon as I walked into the terminal I looked back one last time to see my dad’s truck drive off and cried even harder. This was it. Besides the fact that everyone in the airport was looking at me like I was crazy, I knew I had to pull it together. I had three months ahead of me! Then I get to the ticket booth and it seemed like everything was going wrong. I literally had to empty my carry on bag at the ticket booth and found out I needed a visa to get into Australia which I didn’t have. I instantly started sweating as the line behind me was growing impatient and as I was not clearly thinking, asked the man helping me to hold my tampons, spare underwear (incase my luggage got lost enroute to another country) and my midol. It all worked out but of course I was thinking, “5 minutes into it and it’s already hard.” But then something crazy happened. I literally felt every prayer that was ever prayed over me come to life. I felt freshness and a confidence as I walked up to the security check and I’ve never once doubted or feared since. I literally felt God’s authority rise inside of me and had a revelation of God’s power on me, a force field surrounding me. Not only physically but emotionally. Even in the moments where I literally have/had no clue where I am or how to get home, I just knew that God was going to do something. It’s almost exciting when those moments approach bc it’s fun to see what God is going to do next.

So far my trip has been absolutely amazing! I’ve been so amazingly blessed in every way possible! I’m staying with my friend Linds who is so ridiculously similar to me it’s insane. We sit and talk over tea and laugh for hours. I think it’s become a tradition that every night we get blankets, a cup of tea and sit on the coach and chat. I want to take her home in my suitcase with me, I don’t know what I’m going to do every night without her talks and laughs. I’ve also been hanging out with Christy and Ock on the weekend who have been an absolute blast! Love getting to know all of these people better.

God has been teaching me so much and BLESSING my socks off on this relaxing part of my trip. Even in the vacation part of my trip, I’m staying alert and open to what God wants me to do and He’s definitely brought opportunities my way. From meeting backslidden Christians at the zoo and encouraging them, to just making people laugh, I know that God is being spread in Australia. I love what Trina prayed over me before I left, “may every step she takes be claiming territory for you.” I pray that every step I take, every ½ smile (bc of cold sores) I give, every person I meet will feel/see something different in me. We all leave the fragrance of God wherever we go.

I keep thinking that even when I don’t ask for help or even know that I need help, God sends people to do so. From a stranger walking on a train to hand me a phone with Linds on it to tell me how to get home (how does that even happen?!!?), to a mother and daughter walking with me and waiting with me to make sure I get on the correct bus home. God has definitely answered the prayer Joey Beason prayed over me for, “friendly strangers to help wherever she goes.” Or how about me feeling the urge to go ask a question to the ticket master and missing the train I thought was mine but would have actually taken me the wrong way! The list goes on and on, God definitely has His hand on me, like a parent who has their hand on the head of their small child directing them through a large crowd, yanking them back and pushing them in the right direction. It’s an amazing thing to be so in tune with God and know you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. I love you all! MUAH!

Meeting Kaitlyn who thought I smelt delish...no really, the trainers told me so. She was rescued from Indonesia along with her sister.

Falling head over heels in love with Siam who is a movie star. She just starred in "Water for Elephants" and walked the red carpet with Reese Witherspoon.


Hiking "Gorilla Mountain" Aka: Mount Tibrogargan with Christy and Ock

My amazing friend Linds and I on the City Cat boat ride on the Brisbane River.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

WE leave tonight!

So it definitely hasn’t hit me yet. I’m sitting in my family room in my pjs with my laptop. My dad is watching the drag races on tv, my mom sitting next to him reading a book on her book reader and Jamie is at the computer looking at facebook. Just a normal Sunday morning, nothing out of the ordinary except for the fact I’M LEAVING TONIGHT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD FOR THREE MONTHS! What the!? One of my favorite people in the whole world, Candace, threw a girls going away party for me and we also had a bonfire yesterday and I kept forgetting that these parties were for me. It just seemed like a fun party and every once in awhile I’d realize, oh wait, they’re all here because I’m leaving!!

I have been so ridiculously blessed with everyone’s support so far for this trip and I haven’t even left yet! I had a huge garage sale fundraiser and raised over $1000! How is that even possible?!! Totally God hooking me up! The most expensive item I sold at my garage sale was $60 and I made over $1000. I’m still in awe! Thanks to all my friends and family for helping and donating their stuff to me! Besides the garage sale, I have had a HUGE response from all the letters I sent out. Not only that but people who I’ve never met before would shake my hand and leave $100 bill in it. Throughout this whole experience I’ve learned that this isn’t my trip that I’ve planned, it’s totally Gods. As if He was saying, “ok, plan your trip and I’ll tweak it to what I want.” Some of what I originally planned out has changed and I may not know why at the time but I believe that God has me going exactly where He wants me to be going on this trip. Whether it’s because of safety reasons, or if there is one person that needs a hug in a different part of the world than I thought, He knew every second of this trip and how it would work out before I was even born. And that’s how much He loves His people, He would change my flights and have me go to a completely different country to reach ONE person if that’s what they needed and He’d move the world to get to YOU too if you needed it. He has provided the money for this trip and he continues to provide connections with organizations and families from all over the world to help out with my travels. I am so overwhelmed with all that God has done this far and I HAVEN’T EVEN LEFT YET!

Today is not even close to the beginning of this trip. God had placed this on my heart to do a long time ago and it just seemed like the time was NOW to go. I remember back in January I was talking with some of my girlfriends and was saying that I had such an anticipation and expectant feeling in my heart and I have no idea what it is or when it’s coming but I know that it was going to be huge and knock my socks off! I know that God has huge things for my future but I also know that God has HUGE things in store for this trip and I can’t help but think that that feeling in January was preparation for what’s to happen on this trip and in the near future of my life! I know for a fact that when I get home I’ll have many “I would have NEVER thought God was going to do that” moments and I’m ready, and staying flexible to what HE wants to do on this trip. So stay tuned because with all of the prayers, love and support from all of you, I have been and will continue to be positioned well to take charge and take action! Like I said in my letter, through your giving and prayers, it’s not only my hands holding the kids and loving the lost, it’s OURS! Here we go…we leave tonight! First stop….Australia!